I never make enough time to write what is happening in our lives. I wish I did. I tend to lay awake at night thinking of all the wonderful things I would like to do. Usually morning comes and my great ideas don't sound as great.
BUT... I have finally decided the time has come to finish my schooling and get my associates degree. I am going to attend the College of Western Idaho. I am excited. I am nervous. And mostly, I am ready to accept that my patriarchal blessing was given to ME to bless my life. I fought against going back to school. Not the right time. Not a desire. I don't want to be a nurse anymore.... That last one wasn't true, but I tried to convince myself of that. But alas, a seed was planted in my heart and has finally blossomed into a desire to finish what I have started.
My degree is Biology-Healthcare Emphasis. I was a little disappointed to learn that it would take me 3 full semesters to finish this. I was hoping for 2. I am crossing my fingers that it will work out. This semester I am taking Biology 202, Spanish 101, and Accounting 201. $1000 back after school is paid for... I accept. :)
My kiddos are amazing. I love them. They are my life. Right now I am trying to focus on loving the stage of life I am in. It can be hard. Raising children isn't easy. It can sometimes be lonely. But it is also very rewarding. Nothing else in my life has been quite as rewarding as has been staying home to raise my babies. Jetta is 1 already! Bentley turns 3 in about 2 weeks! I feel like they are so big, yet I know they're still babies.
Jetta is learning to walk right now. She is SO close. She can stand up in the middle of the room and take a few steps. I know that once she conquers walking that she'll go straight into running. I can see it in her eyes, she just wants to get into so many things! She is SO smart too! Already she can hum the ABC/Twinkle Twinkle Little Star tune. I mean, full song. Just amazes me.
Bentley is learning a lot too! He is just absorbing information. The other day he asked us what 'God' means and in our attempt to explain it to him in 2 year old terms, he throws out things like "is he the father of outer space too?" "do astronauts go into outer space?"... All we could do is stare at each other stunned. Where did he learn about outer space and astronauts? Bentley is also testing my patience. He is being quite the pill lately. Last week he threw a fit at walmart, complete with throwing things from the cart, screaming, hitting, kicking his feet.... A very unproductive trip to walmart that day.
My only worry is that I am trying to do things in MY time instead of Heavenly Fathers. I will need to do better at praying for guidance.